+Surrendered Heart+

ITS OVER!!!

2007-10-09T09:53:00.000+08:00

Memory (p)

2007-09-21T10:28:00.000+08:00

2007-09-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

Its about time i wrote this here.Moved to http://sarahclc.multiply.com/ Hehe...

Thoughts

2007-09-17T15:53:00.000+08:00

Upcoming Exams

2007-09-17T11:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm... This is rather strange but i think... I need to pray for more "good" stress. My exams are starting on the 28th and my last paper on the 9th of October. Somehow, although i'm studying... I don't feel enough "pressure" to push myself further. In contrary to what SOME people think, i am NOT a mugger and i HAVE to turn into one just for these few coming weeks. Haha. There is a significant

End of Holiday

2007-09-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

I feel like posting something but I've nothing much to post about... Hmmm. Ok, besides... School is starting tomorrow. Doesn't feel too bad cause i did go back to school a few times during the holidays. I almost had to go back everyday but some lessons were rescheduled so thats why i spend a whole day in school on tuesday. Hehe Today is Covenant's 29th Anniversary! Hehe... Went for 8am service

Holiday

2007-09-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

This holiday has been rather eventful though its true that i spent most of it out doing work. Like... Monday at kristy's place... Tuesday was exciting... "Exicting" i mean. Was in school for lessons from 8am - 6pm. A few of us had an interesting chat with Mr Yosef too. Haha. Wednesday, met Grace and Jon Ng to do more work at bras basah. It was extremely productive and we only took 1 long break

Politics

2007-09-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

"Politics isn't a career. Its a service." - Teo Ser Luck Thats such a cool way to put it... haha :D Going for the session last saturday was a great experience and taught me a lot more. At the same time, i found it inspiring. And... The humility and integrity of the ministers struck me as a point which cannot be taken forgranted... Hehe

Random

2007-08-30T14:11:00.000+08:00

Really long day today. Can't beat last week but anyway, its long enough. Got home at 5pm after school. Had Emath level test which was rather challenging... Haha. But it was ok. Anyway, looks like my holiday this coming week wouldnt exactly be a "holiday"... Oh well. Gotta go back to school almost everyday. Tuesday is the worst. I've got lessons from 8am-4pm. Thats like, a normal day or maybe

Thoughts

2007-08-29T06:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes... I have to admit that life can get pretty tiring. Ok, reallly tiring. Ha...But its in times like these I ask myself ... "Where do i find my strength?" "In You In You I find my peace In You In You I find my strength In You I live and move and breathe Let everything I say and do Be founded by my faith in You I lift up holy hands and sing Let the praises ring!" If my worship comes from

Governance

2007-08-28T13:04:00.000+08:00

Singapore is indeed a blessed nation with a good government. Honestly, why complain? "Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. Therefore whoever resists the authorities resists what God has appointed, and those who resist will incur judgment. For rulers are not a terror to good conduct,

He IS Lord

2007-08-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

Ups and downs in life either lead you AWAY from... or lead you TO God... "He's the Lord of the sunshine, the Lord of the Rain. He's the Lord of the good times, the Lord of the pain. He's the Lord of the mountains, and Lord of the seas. ..... He's the Lord of you and me" Somehow when we sang that song during a sermon at WEB about 2 months ago, it really spoke to me. Just like i read in Numbers

2007-08-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

I hesitated. I doubted. I prayed. God promised. God did. GOD worked. I stood. I learned.

2007-08-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

I've learnt that...1. Maturity does NOT come with age...2. Some people don't know when and where to mention certain things "appropriately".Oh boy... And i thought i should grow up and act my age.Looking at you, I don't feel all that bad. Seriously.

2007-08-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

"There are only 2 people in this world whom i trust. One is me, the other...Isn't you" - haha-Humanities Cluster Challenge on friday... (and i thought the entrepreneurship was the last.. nvm)-Staying back in school every other day till 6.30pm+... If not, classes till 4pm++-About... 2 tests everyday on average.-Homework which never seems to be depleted-etc... the list goes on and on and on :pErm..

2007-08-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

God gave me a reason to SMILE :DNo matter how much I feel I'm all alone in this journey...He reminds me i'm not :D

2007-08-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

I finally found the answerAfter all that searching...thinking...reading...I've concluded i could blame all this...On you.God, help me to turn things around that my actions may please YOU alone.

2007-08-06T13:48:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry you've lost that kidThe one who wanted you homeBut you failed to be thereThe one who looked up to youBut you didn't wanna careThe one who needed the time with youYet you didn't believe she didPlease don't even think she'll live to forget that.Forgiving is 1 thing, but forgetting is another.

2007-08-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

I can't help but think how much a blessing SPIDERS truly are =)Each one of them has encouraged us in different ways and for that, i'm eternally grateful.This picture shows how much they've gotten out of their comfort zones too... Haha (Just as an example, acting as a poser :D EeeeeeLin, don't kill me if you ever read this. Hehe)

2007-08-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

“If this loss is the only way to keep things from getting harder…I’d rather suffer through the storms…If the distance is the only thing that’s keeping it together…I’d rather not have it this way at all…”Jeremiah 29:11-14"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen.

2007-07-31T17:55:00.001+08:00

the absence which leaves me emotionless

2007-07-31T17:55:00.000+08:00

Time seems to be ticking slowwweerr and slowwwwwer everytime i want it to go ffaaassstterrrr... Ahhhh.. Sigh, nvm...Anyway, i've came to the realisation that my essays are starting to really sound like Nicholas Sparks books. HAHAH... Just brilliant. Oh, and if you're looking for a book to read ... "Dear John" IS a MUST read :D Trust me, i think its one of the best of his books. I've read 10/12 of

2007-07-29T18:12:00.003+08:00

Know what this feels like?Like a huge part of me is missing...why... i'm sorry

2007-07-29T18:12:00.001+08:00

I give up... I surrender. Please just tell me what to do... and where to goIts gonna be yet another sleepless night

2007-07-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

Some people have NOTHING but a mouth full of discouragementplease stop pissing me off. Thank You

2007-07-09T15:25:00.000+08:00

What About NowShadows fill an empty heartAs love is fading,From all the things that we areBut are not saying.Can we see beyond the scarsAnd make it to the dawn?Change the colors of the sky.And open up toThe ways you made me feel alive,The ways I loved you.For all the things that never died,To make it through the night,Love will find you.What about now?What about today?What if you're making me all

2007-07-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

2007-07-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

oki... i shall finally blog something again. Haha... Going for OBS tomorrow.Yesterday's service was reallllyy "something" for me... God spoke to me about so many things which were so real. And things He called me to, which i've ran away from... No more running. Like Jonah, when God calls... Don't run. Its the responsibility of having something placed in my heart to pursue that i can't ignore.

2007-06-06T17:51:00.002+08:00

1: I'm sorry... But i honestly don't think i've ever OWED you anything either...2: You didn't exactly have to act this way.

2007-06-06T17:51:00.001+08:00

And... it does feel strange not hearing from you today...Sorry for the times i wasn't there or couldn't be there when you needed...

2007-06-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

packed... busy... thinking... smiling... missing... praying... tearing...

2007-05-24T10:07:00.000+08:00

lost. broken. speechless. agonized.Once again, no words can describe the pain inside.Why, God... Why...?

2007-05-20T18:07:00.000+08:00

Its not about being emo at all.There's a difference between merely feeling down and 'angst'yAnd living a situation in itself which is so painfulBut you've got no control over it...Can't imagine i just laid there for 5 long excruciating hoursTossed and turn without a single sign of peaceIt was the worst night in my lifeThe hardest i had to get byThoughts flew through my mindMany were

2007-05-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the time today :)Honestly, i can't stop smiling :DHehe...

2007-05-16T18:06:00.000+08:00

2002"i miss those times... i miss both of them...looking back, i wish i appreciated those moments moreI wish i cherished and treasured more of those deep in my heartCause now i desperately want those memories to return to me"

2007-05-16T11:35:00.000+08:00

I honestly... Don't know how i should feel.Someone please save me from all this...

2007-05-15T17:42:00.000+08:00

To be dead honest?I badly... terribly miss those times just a couple of months back.Why can't things just stay that way?If i could, i'd turn back timeRe-live those times again and things would have been differentSo very different.I wouldn't be here facing this shit right nowI wouldn't be spending this entire day,Merely and simply pondering over what i feel i've lostI'm so sorry... I wish you

2007-05-15T17:06:00.000+08:00

Wondering why things had to drastically turn out this way...I hate the feeling of losing everything

2007-05-14T17:23:00.000+08:00

why...

2007-05-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

Thank you...For the first time in a long time...I truly felt an overwhelming sense of joy againThanks for reminding me what it actually isThat was where I believe...I was meant to beBut never had a chance to

2007-05-10T09:01:00.000+08:00

I wish you had some idea how much this hurts meHow much it actually drags me downI wish you'd realize I've sinked so far beneathThat I'm close to reaching the coreJust take another few more stepsAnd I probably won't existIt hasn't been my choice anywayAnd it wouldn't be my choice to fade awayI'm sorry all these whileMaybe i haven't been my bestMaybe i figured i could jolly well tryOr was it

2007-05-10T08:43:00.000+08:00

You really have your NATURAL ways and in-born instincts to piss me off don't you?wth... Honestly, it isn't that easy till you made it seem like it is. Damn.

2007-05-08T19:12:00.000+08:00

I don't even know what's happening these daysIs it just me? Cause i can't keep my thoughts to myself?And simply accept the fact that you care...I stare out of my windowFeels as if i'm on the top of the worldWatching the sunsetA beautiful view is pointlessWhen you're alone without the one you needAnother day passed...As ordinary as it has been on the better sideI find no point in itWhen every

2007-05-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

After all that had happenedAfter all those tears already shedAfter the pain i felt all that whileI thought the best way to end all thatAnd let it all outWas to run back to youLittle did i expect any of thoseAll i wanted was to get it off meBut i didnt expect the reactions that cameAfter so much knew about how i already feltTill this hour i can't get over a single thing you saidI thought i'd feel

2007-05-06T11:59:00.000+08:00

Why will i feel like this when it isn't what i protrayed things to be? Why do i feel so disturbed within when i could barely remember how it felt the last time i was caught in such a situation? It doesn't hurt, or does it? For 4 years, no one but 1 other has caused me to feel this way just till u came by... Why? Somethings about myself i just can't understand. Sometimes its heartbreaking...God i

2007-05-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

the reason things may have turned out this wayi have no one but myself to blamei'm sorry for what i have doneand all that i may doi wish i've never been that ignorantof everything good that came my wayi wish i cherished every single momentas if i'd never see them come againif i had thought that waymaybe i would have seen this comingmaybe i would have foreseen these restless nightsI'd rather

2007-04-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

A ReleaseWho am i nowAm i still the sameSeems like i've changedWhat do you doAt every moment as i think of youAll the things which used to beEvery memory which never belongedNothing but regrets are all i face somehowDo you remember way before thenWhen even my eyes seemed to glowNow all thats left are those eyesFilled with nothing but remorseWhere am i nowStill in that very stance since we turned

2007-04-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

Maybe cause i let it beYour actions ripped a wretched heartThe prolonged despondency of great tormentDejected in desperation, she strived to standOnly to find it just wasn't the plan

2007-04-11T16:45:00.000+08:00

"Jealousy " by Queen"Oh how strong can you beWith matters of the heart?Life is much too shortTo while away with tearsIf only you could see just what you do to meOh jealousy you tripped me upJealousy you brought me downYou bring me sorrow you cause me painJealousy when will you let go?Gotta hold of my possessive mindTurned me into a jealous kind"

2007-03-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

"the BIGGER your God is, the smaller your problems are"How great, how awesome, how majestic and how BIG is your God?? When we work... We work... When we PRAY... God works!

2007-02-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

PerfectHey Dad look at meThink back and talk to meDid I grow up accordingTo plan?Do you think I’m wastingMy time doing things IWanna do? But it hurts when youDisapprove all alongAnd now I try hard to make itI just want to make you proudI’m never gonna be goodEnough for youI can’t pretend thatI’m alrightAnd you can’t change me‘Cuz we lost it allNothing lasts foreverI’m sorryI can’t be PerfectNow

2007-02-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

between the two extremes of "acceptance" and "rejection",i wonder why i had chosen that wayit could be that close, yet so far...but what that is, time can't possibly be turnedacceptance only starts to seem real and true,so much more a blessing than a natural course...when you've experienced the deep sense of belonging,and the loniness the other has brought.the only place i knew i felt right in,i

2007-01-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

I walk Beside YouDream TheatreThere's a story in your eyesI can see the hurt behind your smileFor every sign I recognizeAnother one escapes meLet me know what plagues your mindLet me be the one to know you bestBe the one to hold you upWhen you feel like you're sinkingTell me once againWhat's beneath the pain you're feelingDon't abandon meOr think you can't be savedI walk beside youWherever you

2006-11-10T09:51:00.000+08:00

Quiet now.Your voice sings miles awaybut somehow I hear your song resoundA little bit softer each dayAnd from my tired heart, a little bit farther away.I’ll sing aloneThe whole day through.Just do your best to hear me.It’s all you can do.You have my attentionLike you’ve had all the while,Since that first day when you made my heart smile,With loving eyes and tired sighs that follow.You have my

2006-11-07T15:51:00.000+08:00

She still could not believe the state she was on the streets close to home...After sleepless nights soaked in tears of the pains within, the cause he laid her there to face. She lived by each day thinking, hoping, wondering. When would she come down to realising the truth that has been set of the past in the midst of the quiet nights she strayed... The glow of the midnight stars in place left her

2006-10-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

currently feeling bored... so i'm doing this to entertain myself ...hahahaTEN EMOTIONS.1. are you missing someone right now: YES2. are you happy: eer... well, not very3. are you talking to anyone right now: on msn? Yea :D my jie Eunice! hee4. are you bored: i dont feel like doing my art5. are you german: nope.6. are you brazilian: nope.7. are you french: nope.8. are you Italian: no! i'm chinese!

2006-09-17T19:59:00.000+08:00

"Don't say "i love you" to someone when you don't mean it. But if u do, say it a lot. People forget"I've never had a week as good as this in ages :)

2006-09-13T19:16:00.000+08:00

"loving someone and having them love you back is the most precious thing in the world..." - 'Judy McAden' (the Rescue by Nicholas Sparks)

2006-09-13T19:11:00.000+08:00

not knowing where to go... i've made it this far."What can i do... but praise You... everyday make everything i do... A Hallelujah..."

2006-08-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hey Dad,I'm writing to you,not to tell you that I still hate you.Just to ask you how you feeland how we fell apart,how this fell apart.Are you happy out there in this great wide world?Do you think about your sons?Do you miss your little girl?When you lay your head down,How do you sleep at night?Do you even wonder if we're alright?but we're alright,We're alright...Its been a long hard road without

2006-07-31T15:01:00.000+08:00

I feel like i'm crashing straight down the drain...And guess i've gotta learn to move onBut sooner or later, i have to make this decision...Cuz since i hardly say nice things here these days,i think its best i stop blogging for awhile (maybe just lyrics and pics) till things straighten out a littleand i get back to this planet.Unless its something i really have to say...till then,God bless

2006-07-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

i just need that time againthose times i used to have

2006-07-28T10:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE LIN!!!Haha... :D its sooo great having such a committed spider like you in our WG! Thanks for your time u spent with us. And all those hours and hours on the phone... hehe :) You've been a blessing! Encouraged by your love for the students u teach in school too... heh. God bless you!

2006-07-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

Had a good day at school today :D thank God for that... hehe.History test wasnt that bad lah... Yesterday had chinese test (as usual i'm waiting to just see if i failed better... meaning, "to fail with better marks"...haha)Oh yea, and thanks to this blog... Asidah and Joey had they're reputation of sanity drop by 1 notch during com lab lesson today eh? HAHA... YouTube rocks... haha! (Joey/asidah,

2006-07-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

There's always a chance i'd start to tear each time i close my eyesWhen all those pieces of memories flash before my mindI havent learnt, have I?In life, there are certain people who were meant to encourage you... And certain people you were meant to encourage :)You have no idea how much it meant to me...And i've done the best i could.

2006-07-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

another one of those nights everything came back and made me realise reality...when all thats changed can't go back or be replaced.facts of life are just plain hard to accept...tears so hard to explain...somethings that piss me off so bad i wonder if they're seen in my life too...i'm sorry for being hereplease pray for me ppl... thanks

2006-07-16T18:27:00.000+08:00

Couple of random thoughts, some of which really do not matter... hahaEver wondered if maybeEvery human being is asleepAnd living a dream which we can control?Maybe we'd wake up one day in heavenOnly to realise you lived a dream for a 100 yrs?lol...Ever felt as if...You dont wanna care too much about things around anymoreAnd leave everything there to beWhile you sit and watch the skies grow from

2006-07-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

When I think back on these timesAnd the dreams we left behindI'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to getTo have you in my lifeWhen I look back on these daysI'll look and see your faceYou were right there for meIn my dreamsI'll always see you soarAbove the skyIn my heartThere always be a placeFor you for all my lifeI'll keep a partOf you with meAnd everywhere I amThere you'll beAnd everywhere I

2006-07-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

oki... lets see, more pics of lame-ness and posers who... fail real bad at acting cool...? HAHAHA... lol :p And Asidah learning to play, Joey refusing to play... I... being a camera freak. Ok, so now u know looking at the pics...There isnt anything else but guitars to do at my house. YEA... hehehe, and well, camera and com too? heh.

2006-07-14T17:27:00.000+08:00

Joey and Asidah came over today... And lamed around trashing my guitars (goodness, Asidah nearly gave me heart attack when she held my "husband"...hahaha. always gets me nervous lah!) anyways, watch the posers trying to sing... ah, well... i dont think theres sound. so watch the mime. heh!

2006-07-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

Went for dawn prayer the last 2 mornings and interesting enough, i didnt have much of a problem waking up! Hehehe... Just that i dont really have enough time to eat my breakfast and would end up damn hungry when i get to school... hahaha. Can ask naddz, joey, erica, asidah or kezia how many times i can say that in a day. (i'm trying to cut down saying that tho...hehe) My darling Joey was kinda

2006-07-11T15:32:00.000+08:00

ok, great. Now can someone help me get rid of my "addiction"/"distraction"... haha, er... besides my guitars :phttp://www.americasarmy.com/

2006-07-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes...somethings...some people... i just cant understand :(

2006-07-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

Just when everything seems to be falling apart, you realise the only thing that holds u together is prayer:)Such an important tool in a christian walk and an awesome gift to speak to our heavenly Father.Its really an encouragement to meet and pray with ur fellow christian peers every alternate day before morning assembly in school. Cuz u know that you're not alone in this walk when others around

2006-07-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

This week seems to drag on so slowly... havent felt like this for a looonng time. Its not like i've been busier any other week. But this time, it has been exceptionally long somehow. And i've been wasting my time the whole afternoon today playing some dumb game (er... something like CS) Just one of those days u dont feel like doing anything but sit and rot away from the world. Having a sore

2006-07-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

Yay! I just changed my blogskin... haha...This one is really plain compared to those i had... But, i LIKE!!! heheAnyways,today, i really wanna thank God for a vverry special bro to me... :) for all the crapping and talking nonsense, the laughter, the listening, the joy, company... hahaha :DHAPPY BIRTHDAY YIREN a.k.a 1MAN! :D:God bless you:

2006-06-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

Thank you for showing me hopeTo live my life and stand againThough everything tumbles and fallsYou give me strength to carry onIn a world that nothings stays foreverWhere no one's to be depended uponYou're here standing by meCalling me by nameI am yours foreverWhere my destiny lays ahead of meI know i never will be lostFollowing you, your wayTake away the fear in meTeach me to learn a whole new

2006-06-19T13:48:00.000+08:00

Ever found it strangeThat somethings could changeSo much to the extremePeople could change so fastJust within a weekWith no answersAnd without wordsEverything starts to fall apartPast memories flow thru your mindAs you lay on ur bed you wonder whySo much has to happen in so little timeHelplessly as the night grows coldYou ask yourself what you've doneLying in bed, can't help but cryYou feel like

2006-06-18T19:40:00.000+08:00

IncompleteEmpty spaces fill me up with holesDistant faces with no place left to goWithout you, within me I can't find no restWhere I'm going is anybody's guessChorus:I've tried to go on like I never knew youI'm awake but my world is half asleepI pray for this heart to be unbrokenBut without you all I'm going to be is, incompleteVoices tell me I should carry onBut I am swimming in an ocean all

2006-06-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

"I'll hold a place for you insideInside my heart for you and II won't forget these tears I cryWith every year that passes byAnd I can't sleep without youAnd I can't breathe anymoreGood times last foreverI'll keep my heart with yoursFor every minute I am gone (I am gone)Swear you'll never leave meI'll be there every timeIn your heart and in your eyesI'll give it up this time againSome things are

2006-06-06T08:49:00.000+08:00

You'd wake up the next morningRealising it wasnt worth the 6 hours6 hours worth of tears filled with hurtCuz you'd feel the same the after all thatAnd the degree of the pain just risesYou wish you knew before handBut it was too late anywaysYou couldn't help the tearsYou couldn't bear the pain

2006-06-06T02:23:00.000+08:00

"I faintly remember yesterday,Oh so close yet far away,From the lives that we once etched in stoneWho would think that it would lastPlease just give it one more chanceForever is a word that only growsAnd never in this saddest momentI feel we're letting goAnd if you take me, please don't leave meI'll never let you goThis is goodbyeBecause we're growing olderThis is forever in the words you never

2006-05-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

"Lord, thank you for showing yourself to me at Unify... Thank you for showing me u listened and for being there. You're soo real to me! Help me to obey you and continue this walk with you, engaged in prayer..." :)I believe in prayer... And "When we work, we work. When we pray, God works!"Be there at GDOP this sunday, 4th June... Doors open at 5pm! Be early! :DLog on to:http://

2006-05-27T13:35:00.000+08:00

Now Playing: Don't Go Away - OasisCold and frosty morning,Theres not a lot to say,About the things caught in my mind,And as the day was dawning,My plane flew away,With all the things caught in my mind,I dont wanna be there when your, coming down,I dont wanna be there when you hit the ground,So dont go away,Say what you say,Say that you'll stay,Forever and a day,In the time of my life,Cos I need

2006-05-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

Oook... Great, so i got back my report book yesterday and my overall got pulled down A LOT by some stupid subject... fine, its not stupid but at least i know i cant do it for nuts!!! Argh... Passed every subject except... Chinese. Like, DUH!!! Shucks. At least it isnt a single digit mark i thought i would get. Ha... How to "siam" CLB next year...? Sigh. I'm so screwed. Oh wells. And i'm so

2006-05-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

I honestly never thought it would affect me this muchI thought i prepared myself mentally if anything were to happenCuz i knew things don't last foreverI didn't think of how i'd be emotionallyNot being able to help my feelingsNow all i see is a blank space into the futureEverytime i think of how i'd be if it really comes trueMy eyes can't help but start to well upWith tears rolling down my

2006-05-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

You'd never understand me anyway,so quit trying to find out...

2006-05-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

"Take these promises I've madeAnd hold them strongDon't think twice about those things that I did wrongCause I'd never do something intentionally just hurt youAnd I've stared at the skyAnd I've asked myself why you've become like an angel to meStill the days and the weeks and the hours go byAnd the minutes they just fade awayAnd I'm missing you every second in timeAnd it hurts cause you're so far

2006-05-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

Sigh... Ok, so Jeanette left yesterday and i seriously can't believe she left sooo soon!!! Oh wells... I guess its really hard for me having to leave someone close and special to me, and who has been such a blessing and an encouragement to me over the past months (whether she realised it or not...besides "suaning" me all the time...hahaha) would really miss her but... Yea... *sob sob* hee...

2006-05-17T15:12:00.000+08:00

What am i supposed to do now?Just sit and wait for whats to come?I can't hold on any longerI can't wait for long...I wanna move on to where i feel i'd belong

2006-05-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

Should i just say thatI miss the times we sharedAnd the memories we hadWill there ever be another chanceMore days like thoseFrom this day forth?"God, help me to get thru this... i can't live on my own anymore""Jesus take the wheel,take it from my hands,cause I can't do this on my own.I'm letting go,so give me one more chance.Save me from this road I'm on.Jesus take the wheel."-Carrie Underwood

2006-05-15T17:37:00.001+08:00

Maybe nothing i doIs ever gonna be good enough for youAm i just here to do the things that please youIs everything i do just never rightMaybe its all just wrong in your sightCuz i'm sure it seems to u i cant get anything rightBut when he's the one that does those thingsEverything seems fineI think i could see the bias side of youAnd from your view he's the oneWho's always there and willing to

2006-04-30T10:01:00.000+08:00

Beneath that smile are the tears of a torn up heart, beneath those tears lay the hurt of 13 years...Will someone cure the swelled red eyes...and the open wounds with added salt in flaming acids

2006-04-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

You can say what u want about me... do what u think i deserve... spit on me like the ground... cuz i dont care what u think of me... your words are nothing but noise... your actions nothing but movements... Go ahead and make use of me... Maybe i'm just meant for you to step on... I dont feel like myself anymore... No more who i used to be. I dont feel as if i exist any longer, maybe thats what u

2006-04-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

I just can't live a lie - Carrie UnderwoodLately nothing I do ever seems to please youAnd maybe turning my back would be that much easierCause hurtful words are all that we exchangeBut I can’t watch you walk awayCan I forget about the way it feels to touch you?And all about the good times that we’ve been throughCould I wake up without you every day?Would I let you walk away?No, I can’t learn to

2006-04-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

I Still Haven't Found What I Am Looking For"I have climbed highest mountainI have run through the fieldsOnly to be with youOnly to be with youI have runI have crawledI have scaled these city wallsThese city wallsOnly to be with youBut I still haven't found what I'm looking forBut I still haven't found what I'm looking forI have kissed honey lipsFelt the healing in her fingertipsIt burned like

2006-03-27T17:57:00.000+08:00

Some wounds take a longer time to heal than others...And turn into scars which can never disappear...Some things just could never be forgotten...And you'd wish the "backspace" key worked in life...After a night of tears were shed...You'd know not all friends could be trusted...And find out its all just a lie...Dragging someone down that trap...They steal from you all you have...And take away all

2006-03-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

Joey, Erica & Kezia trying to act cool... I emphasize... "trying"... Haha... Erica, u look wrong lahhh... lol!!!

2006-03-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

oook... A nice picture of erica and kezia interupted by some...er, nutcase... and i wonder who that is... :p

2006-03-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

Erica, Mathew and Me aft math remedial :D heh