"Lord, thank you for showing yourself to me at Unify... Thank you for showing me u listened and for being there. You're soo real to me! Help me to obey you and continue this walk with you, engaged in prayer..." :)
I believe in prayer... And "When we work, we work. When we pray, God works!"
Be there at GDOP this sunday, 4th June... Doors open at 5pm! Be early! :D
Log on to:
http://www.prayforsingapore.sg/
Now Playing: Don't Go Away - Oasis
Cold and frosty morning,
Theres not a lot to say,
About the things caught in my mind,
And as the day was dawning,
My plane flew away,
With all the things caught in my mind,
I dont wanna be there when your, coming down,
I dont wanna be there when you hit the ground,
So dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right
Damn my situation and the games I have to play,
With all the things caught in my mind,
Damn my education I cant find the words to say,
With all the things caught in my mind,
I dont wanna be there when your, coming down,
I dont wanna be there when you hit the ground,
So dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right.
Me and you whats going on,
All we seem to know is how to show,
The feelings that I wrote.
So dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that youll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right.
And dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that youll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right,
Yes I need more time just to make things right,
Yes I need more time just to make things right,
So dont go away.
Oook... Great, so i got back my report book yesterday and my overall got pulled down A LOT by some stupid subject... fine, its not stupid but at least i know i cant do it for nuts!!! Argh... Passed every subject except... Chinese. Like, DUH!!! Shucks. At least it isnt a single digit mark i thought i would get. Ha... How to "siam" CLB next year...? Sigh. I'm so screwed. Oh wells. And i'm so totally NOT satisfied with my results this semester though i passed. Seriously gotta do something about it... I've got a load of math homework to do and have to complete Readers Digest worksheets. Plus... some other stuff to work on. So much for 'holidays'... i WISH i could slack it through. i wish. Haha...
Anyways, enough about my results and homework... haha
GDOP (Global Day Of Prayer) coming up on the 4th of June at National Stadium! Be there by 7pm!
More info at: http://www.prayforsingapore.sg/
I honestly never thought it would affect me this much
I thought i prepared myself mentally if anything were to happen
Cuz i knew things don't last forever
I didn't think of how i'd be emotionally
Not being able to help my feelings
Now all i see is a blank space into the future
Everytime i think of how i'd be if it really comes true
My eyes can't help but start to well up
With tears rolling down my cheeks
The pain felt in the bleeding heart
Shouldn't i be used to it by now
When will i even be able to let go...
Its so easy to give up, but yet the consequences are far beyond what my mind could comprehend...
You'd never understand me anyway,
so quit trying to find out...
"Take these promises I've made
And hold them strong
Don't think twice about those things that I did wrong
Cause I'd never do something intentionally just hurt you
And I've stared at the sky
And I've asked myself why you've become like an angel to me
Still the days and the weeks and the hours go by
And the minutes they just fade away
And I'm missing you every second in time
And it hurts cause you're so far away
All tears that I cry when you're not by my side
And those nights I dream of kissing you goodnight
Are on my mind"
Allister - Don't Think Twice
Sigh... Ok, so Jeanette left yesterday and i seriously can't believe she left sooo soon!!! Oh wells... I guess its really hard for me having to leave someone close and special to me, and who has been such a blessing and an encouragement to me over the past months (whether she realised it or not...besides "suaning" me all the time...hahaha) would really miss her but... Yea... *sob sob* hee...
Personally, the past month hasn't been the easiest... definately not the best and... has been kinda rough for me... But its in times like this when all kinds of thoughts flow through my mind and i know the only one who could have sustained me till today is definately Him alone :) Honestly, i feel like i've been falling, and getting up time and time again, but it is part of the walk... I just wanna stand up finally again, pick up the cross and follow Him... Thats my strongest desire. I don't wanna be like Jonah (like what i've been doing for QT this week) running away from His call... I wanna move towards it even though it takes me having to step out of my comfort zone.
God's love for me is the ultimate source of refuge in my life and in yours! I don't wanna depend on what i have and depend on my own strength but i wanna learn to lean on His side in times of difficulty.
First of all... "God, teach me to love you and know that you love me, understanding the depth of my sin you took upon the cross. I wanna grow in your likeness and in your ways. Help me to trust you're always there and know it in my heart, living this 1 life i have to its fullest for you, for your will to be done and your name to be glorifed... Amen"
How does God appear to you in times of difficulty and pain?
What am i supposed to do now?
Just sit and wait for whats to come?
I can't hold on any longer
I can't wait for long...
I wanna move on to where i feel i'd belong
Should i just say that
I miss the times we shared
And the memories we had
Will there ever be another chance
More days like those
From this day forth?
"God, help me to get thru this... i can't live on my own anymore"
"Jesus take the wheel,
take it from my hands,
cause I can't do this on my own.
I'm letting go,
so give me one more chance.
Save me from this road I'm on.
Jesus take the wheel."
-Carrie Underwood
Maybe nothing i do
Is ever gonna be good enough for you
Am i just here to do the things that please you
Is everything i do just never right
Maybe its all just wrong in your sight
Cuz i'm sure it seems to u i cant get anything right
But when he's the one that does those things
Everything seems fine
I think i could see the bias side of you
And from your view he's the one
Who's always there and willing to share
Thats all you look at
Thats all you see
But you'd never taste what its like for me
You think you see nothing on your side
When you get to this side i'm on
You'll figure that this road goes nowhere
And when u get to the other side...
You'll see that the grass isn't even there
"I walk a lonely road, the only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes, But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street, On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps, And I'm the only one and I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone..."
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams - Green Day