I feel like i'm crashing straight down the drain...
And guess i've gotta learn to move on
But sooner or later, i have to make this decision...
Cuz since i hardly say nice things here these days,
i think its best i stop blogging for awhile (maybe just lyrics and pics) till things straighten out a little
and i get back to this planet.
Unless its something i really have to say
...
till then,
God bless
i just need that time again
those times i used to have
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE LIN!!!
Haha... :D its sooo great having such a committed spider like you in our WG! Thanks for your time u spent with us. And all those hours and hours on the phone... hehe :) You've been a blessing! Encouraged by your love for the students u teach in school too... heh. God bless you!
Had a good day at school today :D thank God for that... hehe.
History test wasnt that bad lah... Yesterday had chinese test (as usual i'm waiting to just see if i failed better... meaning, "to fail with better marks"...haha)
Oh yea, and thanks to this blog... Asidah and Joey had they're reputation of sanity drop by 1 notch during com lab lesson today eh? HAHA... YouTube rocks... haha! (Joey/asidah, i know u totally "agree" with me...hehehe) Increased popularity online... ha... No big deal lah, its online anyway... only half the class out of the "entire internet world" :p
Well... its been... 2419200sec = 40320min = 672hrs = 28days = 4wks = approx. 1mth
Arghh... i never knew i'd survive this long. Honestly...
To top up all the happy things in life... all that helps distract my emotions...with something like this.
How long more could i handle living this way.
With the pain...
"God, help me"
(Joey...!!! Give me a hug now... ... *big hug* lol... haha)
There's always a chance i'd start to tear each time i close my eyes
When all those pieces of memories flash before my mind
I havent learnt, have I?
In life, there are certain people who were meant to encourage you... And certain people you were meant to encourage :)
You have no idea how much it meant to me...
And i've done the best i could.
another one of those nights everything came back and made me realise reality...
when all thats changed can't go back or be replaced.
facts of life are just plain hard to accept...
tears so hard to explain...
somethings that piss me off so bad i wonder if they're seen in my life too...
i'm sorry for being here
please pray for me ppl... thanks
Couple of random thoughts, some of which really do not matter... haha
Ever wondered if maybe
Every human being is asleep
And living a dream which we can control?
Maybe we'd wake up one day in heaven
Only to realise you lived a dream for a 100 yrs?
lol...
Ever felt as if...
You dont wanna care too much about things around anymore
And leave everything there to be
While you sit and watch the skies grow from blue till nightfall
Seeing how bad or good things can turn
Without your own control
Does that link to learning to release?
Letting go of things which arent in your control?
And even those you have a choice to hold on to?
Surrendering your thoughts...
Your desires...
Your wants in life...
Letting go of people you hold on sooo close to
I know its possible, its just never easy
"God, teach me, help me, guide me. I give up trying so hard on my own. I've come to this point i humbly say, i need You Jesus... Give me strength and help me release all there is to you... Take away all doubt in my mind and give me a sense of desperation for You... Amen" :)
More thoughts...
Isn't it strange why people work so hard
To acheive so much which can never last
To acheive all thats temporal
When everyone fades off one day
We neglect the truth
Neglect the reason we were made,
To worship a God who deserves our praise
Only to face our destinies for eternity when we pass on
Salvation is here, right here
All thats needed is that step of FAITH to believe
Choices:
Eternity with Christ... (salvation)
Eternal condemnation... (deception)
Which would you choose? :D
Have a blessed week!
In Him,
Sarah
When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back on these day
sI'll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all
The strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me (You were right there for me)
You were right there for me
For always
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
There you'll be
Faith Hill - There you'll be
oki... lets see, more pics of lame-ness and posers who... fail real bad at acting cool...? HAHAHA... lol :p And Asidah learning to play, Joey refusing to play... I... being a camera freak. Ok, so now u know looking at the pics...There isnt anything else but guitars to do at my house. YEA... hehehe, and well, camera and com too? heh.
Joey and Asidah came over today... And lamed around trashing my guitars (goodness, Asidah nearly gave me heart attack when she held my "husband"...hahaha. always gets me nervous lah!) anyways, watch the posers trying to sing... ah, well... i dont think theres sound. so watch the mime. heh!
Went for dawn prayer the last 2 mornings and interesting enough, i didnt have much of a problem waking up! Hehehe... Just that i dont really have enough time to eat my breakfast and would end up damn hungry when i get to school... hahaha. Can ask naddz, joey, erica, asidah or kezia how many times i can say that in a day. (i'm trying to cut down saying that tho...hehe) My darling Joey was kinda crazy today... came up to me like at LEAST 4 times thru out the day and said "sarah... give me a hug" er... haha. fiinnee. :p And i found out something today! Kezia really is a huggable pillow!!! (so agree with erica... *gives that smile...* heh heh heh) :D Good thing i manage to catch up on math even tho was absent on monday and tuesday. *yay! smart girl...hahaha* *grins*
ok, great. Now can someone help me get rid of my "addiction"/"distraction"... haha, er... besides my guitars :p
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sometimes...somethings...some people... i just cant understand :(
Just when everything seems to be falling apart, you realise the only thing that holds u together is prayer:)
Such an important tool in a christian walk and an awesome gift to speak to our heavenly Father.
Its really an encouragement to meet and pray with ur fellow christian peers every alternate day before morning assembly in school. Cuz u know that you're not alone in this walk when others around you have the same vision God placed in ur heart :D
Haha, Jon, thanks for your help yesterday...hehe, or else 'suaku' me duno anything :p
Best was surprising Eunice after service. EeLin and myself were supposed to distract her but had to pack up/debrief and EeLin had spiders mtg. So ended up asking her to wait for me. Hehe... We walked up after worship debrief and pack-up and the foyer was unusually empty. (how suspicious... usually we take an hour to go to plaza having to wait for everyone, and the foyer was empty! wow... what a miracle. haha!) walking towards the yellow tables when she asked "er... why are we going to yellowtables?" in my mind, i went "oh great, what am i supposed to say?!" anyways, managed to pull it off thankfully not laughing with "oh, our WG waiting for us there to go for dinner" (ah-ha, so proud of myself. like playing "malarkee"-duno how to spell...btw, i'm terrriiibblllyy bad at that game cuz i'd either turn all red or laugh) but she thought i meant that the WG was eating there. (when they dont see food at yellow benches...dduuuhh!) haha. oki, was really funny.
All of us went to plaza after that and nearly packed the whole of macs. (poor me had to da bao food cuz i couldnt eat macs... Sore throat) A group of us had a good time laughing our heads off lah... Gladys is super-duper funny! (which unfortunately got my throat a bit worst i think.. haha, couldnt laugh properly! Was practically crying already. Haha) Thanks to all the lame cartoon silly crazy jokes. Hehe... Saw Erica and Audrey too. (almost couldnt recognize them...hehe) Anyway, thanks to Alien senior researcher for caring and making sure i dont "faint". Haha. Had a great time :D BLESSED belated 14th BIRTHDAY TO MY "jie"! Thanks for being who you are and for every single time u were there to listen and crap with me. hee, btw, i'll never forget that hike...haha. love ya! :D
1 last thing...
Thanks for the letter and encouragement :) Yea, it's been over 2 years eh? How time flies and how things change... Amazing isnt it? The God we worship, the Father who loves... Hehe. You've been such a blessing! Thank you for your patience over the past years. Continue to trust in Him too! Thanks for the prayers... hee, and that note really brightened up my day... :D
-you know who you are... haha-
I'm currently down with fever (39.7), flu, sore throat and cough. Please pray for me. Thanks!
(So if my entry sounds a bit weird today, forgive me... haha. Its not that i'm alien. My brain probably just fried... hee)
God bless!
In Him,
Sarah
This week seems to drag on so slowly... havent felt like this for a looonng time. Its not like i've been busier any other week. But this time, it has been exceptionally long somehow. And i've been wasting my time the whole afternoon today playing some dumb game (er... something like CS) Just one of those days u dont feel like doing anything but sit and rot away from the world. Having a sore throat so its totally draggin' down my mood, sprained my ankle duing PE on wednesday and it still hurts, but thank God not as bad as before. Had 3 weird dreams so far this week and i'm seriously praying i could get a proper sleep with decent dreams tonight without having to wake up wondering if "it was all a dream, or reality"... Well, i gotta go complete my homework. Update some other time. Till then, God bless. :)
Yay! I just changed my blogskin... haha...
This one is really plain compared to those i had... But, i LIKE!!! hehe
Anyways,
today, i really wanna thank God for a vverry special bro to me... :) for all the crapping and talking nonsense, the laughter, the listening, the joy, company... hahaha :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIREN a.k.a 1MAN! :D
:God bless you: