Sigh... Ok, so Jeanette left yesterday and i seriously can't believe she left sooo soon!!! Oh wells... I guess its really hard for me having to leave someone close and special to me, and who has been such a blessing and an encouragement to me over the past months (whether she realised it or not...besides "suaning" me all the time...hahaha) would really miss her but... Yea... *sob sob* hee...
Personally, the past month hasn't been the easiest... definately not the best and... has been kinda rough for me... But its in times like this when all kinds of thoughts flow through my mind and i know the only one who could have sustained me till today is definately Him alone :) Honestly, i feel like i've been falling, and getting up time and time again, but it is part of the walk... I just wanna stand up finally again, pick up the cross and follow Him... Thats my strongest desire. I don't wanna be like Jonah (like what i've been doing for QT this week) running away from His call... I wanna move towards it even though it takes me having to step out of my comfort zone.
God's love for me is the ultimate source of refuge in my life and in yours! I don't wanna depend on what i have and depend on my own strength but i wanna learn to lean on His side in times of difficulty.
First of all... "God, teach me to love you and know that you love me, understanding the depth of my sin you took upon the cross. I wanna grow in your likeness and in your ways. Help me to trust you're always there and know it in my heart, living this 1 life i have to its fullest for you, for your will to be done and your name to be glorifed... Amen"
How does God appear to you in times of difficulty and pain?