I wish you had some idea how much this hurts me
How much it actually drags me down
I wish you'd realize I've sinked so far beneath
That I'm close to reaching the core
Just take another few more steps
And I probably won't exist
It hasn't been my choice anyway
And it wouldn't be my choice to fade away
I'm sorry all these while
Maybe i haven't been my best
Maybe i figured i could jolly well try
Or was it simply to quit?
I wanna give up and walk away
But it isn't, like I've said
As simple as it sounds
For what was once said
I wonder if it still applies now
If those words meant something
If those words were lasting
I swear I've finally found the meaning again
Finally renewed within my mind
I've gotta be reminded of this sometimes
Cause its honestly, pretty hard to get by...
I wish you could be here to share the partial joy with me... I'll be continually wishing... And I'll keep hoping... pondering... wondering... sacrificing... loving... caring... tearing... crying... hurting... dreaming... of and for the day it will be finally...coming. I can't let go of this hope. Its the only thing that keeps me going, yet pulling me back, at the same time. I'll hold on to this, even if it means waiting my entire life time... Cause at least if gives me something, and a reason to keep me here.