Its not about being emo at all.
There's a difference between merely feeling down and 'angst'y
And living a situation in itself which is so painful
But you've got no control over it...
Can't imagine i just laid there for 5 long excruciating hours
Tossed and turn without a single sign of peace
It was the worst night in my life
The hardest i had to get by
Thoughts flew through my mind
Many were ridiculous
Things i know i shouldn't have thought of doing
Just to get away and hide wasn't what i was meant to do
I can look back now and honestly say
I know why it was that hard
It felt like losing everything i had
All my dreams...hopes and joy
It was the first time in my life
I felt utterly confused and numb (totally)
Nothing seemed right at all
I admit the fear overwhelmed me
And no words could describe how i felt
I wondered what i turned into
From the very bottom of my heart,
I'm sorry
And today, i thank you