the reason things may have turned out this way
i have no one but myself to blame
i'm sorry for what i have done
and all that i may do
i wish i've never been that ignorant
of everything good that came my way
i wish i cherished every single moment
as if i'd never see them come again
if i had thought that way
maybe i would have seen this coming
maybe i would have foreseen these restless nights
I'd rather expect the worst
than merely dwell in a joyous moment
but it seems like in each of those times i had
i never thought of what was to come
and the drastic turn in emotions
which were bound to take place
i can't imagine anyone ever taking that place
i can't put into words that guilt I'd face
even at this instant i wanna hide
and run from what i did
the wild yet significant defiance which grew within
I'm just sorry i couldn't control
I'm sorry, as usual, i couldn't say no
yet i so desperately wanted to
i wanted to scream and run back to you
wherever you were and whatever it took
i wish i did, and this is wouldn't face
pondered on my day
paved with mistakes was all that's left
life would be perfect in an instant
if only my single wish would come true
I've never seen a solution as simple as it is
to perfect a life, i must say, is a big thing
as simple as it is, i can't make it happen
and i wonder why this was what it is for me