Really long day today. Can't beat last week but anyway, its long enough. Got home at 5pm after school. Had Emath level test which was rather challenging... Haha. But it was ok.
Anyway, looks like my holiday this coming week wouldnt exactly be a "holiday"... Oh well. Gotta go back to school almost everyday. Tuesday is the worst. I've got lessons from 8am-4pm. Thats like, a normal day or maybe slightly worse. Ahhh... *dang*
There's no lessons tomorrow cause of teachers day so... =) YAY! Hehe. There's piles of homework but i'll start on that after dinner. AND... get a realllly nice sleep tonight (i miss that... hehe)
These few days... I've been thinking of what i'll go into after secondary school and after my studies. Narrowed down to a few options...(yea, there's nothing wrong with planning or thinking and considering my interests...) but for now I'll put that aside and give my best here...first. The rest, I'll leave it in His hands :D
"God, my life is in your hands. I know you have plans for me...Plans to prosper and not to harm =)"
Sometimes... I have to admit that life can get pretty tiring. Ok, reallly tiring. Ha...But its in times like these I ask myself ... "Where do i find my strength?"
"In You In You I find my peace
In You In You I find my strength
In You I live and move and breathe
Let everything I say and do
Be founded by my faith in You
I lift up holy hands and sing
Let the praises ring!"
If my worship comes from within... I'm made to worship Him and its the way i live my life. "Do my actions and the way i respond in bad circumstances reflect Chirst as well?"
If it doesn't... "Am i truly worshipping from within in all circumstances...or only when times are good?" Sigh...
"Lord... Teach me to pray. Teach me to worship. Teach me to trust you. Teach me to love you... Train me to live for you alone..."
Singapore is indeed a blessed nation with a good government. Honestly, why complain?
"Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. Therefore whoever resists the authorities resists what God has appointed, and those who resist will incur judgment. For rulers are not a terror to good conduct, but to bad. Would you have no fear of the one who is in authority? Then do what is good, and you will receive his approval, for he is God's servant for your good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for he does not bear the sword in vain. For he is the servant of God, an avenger who carries out God's wrath on the wrongdoer." Romans 13:1-4
Or... What gives us the right to? =)
Ups and downs in life either lead you AWAY from... or lead you TO God...
"He's the Lord of the sunshine, the Lord of the Rain. He's the Lord of the good times, the Lord of the pain. He's the Lord of the mountains, and Lord of the seas. ..... He's the Lord of you and me"
Somehow when we sang that song during a sermon at WEB about 2 months ago, it really spoke to me.
Just like i read in Numbers during my QT last week, God lead the Moses and the Israelites to Canaan. After they sent some men to explore the city, they returned with news that the people living in it were powerful and the cities and towns were fortified and very large. Those were problems they saw... But Moses, on the other hand, went...
"Let’s go at once to take the land for we can certainly conquer it!"
It wasn't only the fact that Moses had faith in God and trusted Him, it was his view of GOD, which struck me. He saw how great God was in comparison to the tiny problems the people saw ahead of them. Like we've learnt in WEB some months back, seeing Spiritual things, over the Physical. Why didn't the Israelites see this, after all the miracles they had witnessed?
I believe in a God who never changes. From Moses' time, right up till today. The God who's far greater than every single problem we face. I asked myself, if the Bible was being written today, will i be just like one of the Israelites who complained and were unbelieving after all that they have seen God do for them (like all He has carried me through), or will i choose to trust in Him and see the bigger picture of God like Moses did?
The long week i had taught me so much to rely on God. And i'm still learning... :)
I hesitated. I doubted. I prayed. God promised. God did. GOD worked. I stood. I learned.
I've learnt that...
1. Maturity does NOT come with age...
2. Some people don't know when and where to mention certain things "appropriately".
Oh boy... And i thought i should grow up and act my age.
Looking at you, I don't feel all that bad. Seriously.
"There are only 2 people in this world whom i trust. One is me, the other...Isn't you" - haha
-Humanities Cluster Challenge on friday... (and i thought the entrepreneurship was the last.. nvm)
-Staying back in school every other day till 6.30pm+... If not, classes till 4pm++
-About... 2 tests everyday on average.
-Homework which never seems to be depleted
-etc... the list goes on and on and on :p
Erm... and i need more energy to keep awake.
Now, i'm just taking my mind of stuff and rant here :D
No, i am not "complaining"... Merely "updating"...
And... back to work. YAY!
Yes, i'm still SMILING... :D
"but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." - Isaiah 40:31
God gave me a reason to SMILE :D
No matter how much I feel I'm all alone in this journey...
He reminds me i'm not :D
I finally found the answer
After all that searching...thinking...reading...
I've concluded i could blame all this...
On you.
God, help me to turn things around that my actions may please YOU alone.
I'm sorry you've lost that kid
The one who wanted you home
But you failed to be there
The one who looked up to you
But you didn't wanna care
The one who needed the time with you
Yet you didn't believe she did
Please don't even think she'll live to forget that.
Forgiving is 1 thing, but forgetting is another.
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I can't help but think how much a blessing SPIDERS truly are =)
Each one of them has encouraged us in different ways and for that, i'm eternally grateful.
This picture shows how much they've gotten out of their comfort zones too... Haha (Just as an example, acting as a poser :D EeeeeeLin, don't kill me if you ever read this. Hehe)
“If this loss is the only way to keep things from getting harder…
I’d rather suffer through the storms…
If the distance is the only thing that’s keeping it together…
I’d rather not have it this way at all…”
Jeremiah 29:11-14
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me. I will be found by you," says the Lord. "I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and bring you home again to your own land."